7 Months ago I was 208 pounds

So, as of Saturday it has been 7 months since I changed my relationship with food.

*I feel like a new me.
*My husband looks at me like we are newlyweds again. He says everyday how proud he is of how far I have come by just watching what I eat and eating enough of what I need.
*I have inspired a bunch of my friends to try a change.
*My daughters are changing their eating habits, slowly but surely.

Most importantly, I feel healthier and love what I eat. No fad dieting or pills. No weightloss surgeries even though, at one point, I thought that may be my only way out of the weight and pain. (Not that I have anything negative to say about those whose path includes surgery).

When I started the Ketogenic Diet I was in a size XL top and tight 16 jeans. I was 208 pounds. I was strong with muscle but weak when it came to sugar and carbs.

Today, 7 months later, I am 53.5 pounds lighter and 55″ smaller. I fit into a size small yoga pants comfortably this morning. I can wear a size Small/Med top and a size 7 in jeans. There were weeks when the scale didn’t move. Those weeks I lost inches, not pounds. There were weeks when nothing moved in numbers but my weekly progress pictures showed me the light.

I am on this journey, not for the weightloss, not for the looks I get from my husband… I am doing this because I want to be the best me I can be.

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Ketogenic Basics

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What a year it has been. #Ketoforlife

I can move mountains… of fat off my thighs, and waist, and chin, and biceps, and face, and rearend… 47.2 lbs gone, about 32.8 lbs to go!!

I felt so unhealthy and disgusted with myself a year ago. I was embarrassed to go swimming with my family, although I still did. The fibromialgia symptoms I had were horribly unbearable.

In October, I found out there was a good chance I would have to have a second c spine surgery since the first one done on 4/23/14 seemed to have failed. I knew I needed to work to be healthier for the recovery so it would not be as painful. The second surgery was very painful. It was February 22, 2016. The extra energy from this ketogenic way of eating, along with the strength and muscles that I gained have helped me through.

I start seeing a therapist Wednesday for the residual anger, depression and sadness that I have been trying to bury. Also for the PTSD I am apparently still dealing with. I just want to work and help provide for my family. I am so glad I am finally going to talk to someone about this who may be able to lead me in a better direction.

So, cheers to a great year. I hope the next year gives me back my ability to work…

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Skip the bathroom scale!!!

Skip the bathroom scale!!!

Huge results to post today after feeling like I haven’t been moving anywhere on this diet Journey for about a month.

 

I decided why not take a couple of photos to do some comparisons and maybe do a little measuring. The scale is my enemy. The bathroom scale that is because my kitchen scale is used more times than anything I think in my house other than my pots and pans on my toilet. I know TMI. And by the way I do not use my pots and pans for a toilet just in case any of you were wondering.

 

So anyhoo even though I said I wasn’t going to weigh myself until I was at least a month post-op… I have been wearing myself like a freaking fiend trying to wear off another pound trying to lose another few ounces to get to a different weight goal. What a waste of time. Yes I did lose 5 pounds. I am currently at about 42 pounds lost but I knew that because I lost those 5 pounds before my surgery and haven’t lost anything since.

 

So this morning I had all kinds of extra time because my lovely children look up when they were supposed to. Their alarms went off and they jumped out of bed… Okay let’s get realistic one of them jumped out of bed and the other one kind of moved at a sloth’s pace from her bed to the floor and finally made it to the bathroom to brush your teeth and her normal bathroom stuff. Regardless though kids were downstairs lost dressed teeth brushed hair brushed ready to go out the door lunch bags in hand and a wonderfully hot breakfast in tummy half an hour early.

 

So as you can imagine at this point I am feeling pretty stinkin good about my mothering skills being 23 days post cervical spine surgery and still having amazing kids and an amazing husband getting everything done. Also side note Staples got removed yesterday and incision is looking pretty good. And yesterday I had some Huge results to post today after feeling like I haven’t been moving anywhere on this diet Journey for about a month.

 

 

I decided why not take a couple of photos to do some comparisons and maybe do a little measuring. The scale is my enemy. The bathroom scale that is because my kitchen scale is used more times than anything I think in my house other than my pots and pans on my toilet. I know TMI. And by the way I do not use my pots and pans for a toilet just in case any of you were wondering.

 

 

So anyhoo even though I said I wasn’t going to leave myself until I was at least a month post-op… I have been wearing myself like a freaking fiend trying to wear off another pound trying to lose another few ounces to get to a different weight goal. What a waste of time. Yes I did lose 5 pounds. I am currently at about 42 pounds lost but I knew that because I lost those 5 pounds before my surgery and haven’t lost anything since.

 

 

So this morning I had all kinds of extra time because my lovely children look up when they were supposed to. Their alarms went off and they jumped out of bed… Okay let’s get realistic one of them jumped out of bed and the other one kind of moved at a sloth’s pace from her bed to the floor and finally made it to the bathroom to brush your teeth and her normal bathroom stuff. Regardless though kids were downstairs lost dressed teeth brushed hair brushed ready to go out the door lunch bags in hand and a wonderfully hot breakfast in tummy half an hour early.

 

 

So as you can imagine at this point I am feeling pretty stinkin good about my mothering skills being 23 days post cervical spine surgery and still having amazing kids and an amazing husband getting everything done. Also on Monday I got my staples taken out and in about two months I can start physical therapy. So yay exclamation point… really seriously! The speech to text thing is really making me sound like I’m a lunatic. That can’t be accurate.

 

Anywho, As I was saying before I so rudely interrupted myself, yesterday I also got to sneak out and go visit my sister for a little bit and also got a visit from a very good friend that I haven’t seen for a little while so it’s been a pretty darn good week so far.

 

 

So here’s the exciting part. In all actuality the children getting ready was not the exciting part because they generally do most of what I ask when I ask him to including all of their laundry. 9 years old doing laundry awesomeness right? Granted sometimes they need some gentle measuring coaxing or shoving in the direction of getting things totally accomplished but again 9 years old need I say more?

 

 

Okay so measurements done and… Drum roll please. Wait a second

 

double check

 

triple check

 

 

quadruple check

 

recalculate please

 

This can’t be right. The only thing that I’ve been able to do since my surgery or squats and leglifts which I have been doing daily sense about a week and a half ago but that’s it.

 

Here it is…

 

 

Since February 13th 2015 scratch that 2016 because I’m apparently out of your behind in my head, I have lost an additional five and three quarter inches. That brings my total lost to 47 pounds, But like I said the scale is not my friend so I don’t care about the scale because the inches don’t lie. I am currently at 46 & 1 quarter inches lost. That’s huge. Pet store near four feet. So almost four feet of fat gone forever. Exclamation point no seriously I actually wanted an! You have to excuse me because a lot of this is being done speech to text and sometimes my speech-to-text sides that it wants to change my words around. I think it’s a little demonic but I’m not a hundred percent sure.

 

 

Anyhoo that’s my awesomeness for the day. Pictures coming in a few minutes. I wish all of you lovely people a fabulous March 16th 2016.

Please accept my apologies for any craziness that my speech-to-text has made things out to be. I assure you I am not drinking or under the influence of anything.

 

Oh by the way… I also included an awesome meal that I made last night for dinner. Macros are for 1 serving. Recipe makes 4 servings. Use chicken breast for lower fat.PhotoGrid_1458134883666PhotoGrid_1458134242740PhotoGrid_1458133435156PhotoGrid_1458083395701

Breaking through limitations one step at a time.

Breaking through limitations one step at a time.

When I had my first cervical fusion in April of 2014 my doctor gave me limitations of Maximum 10 pound weight Lifting limit. Because of the surgery I figured I needed to closely follow the limits to increase the chances of a full healing result.

After 6 months it was still not healed. Even a year post surgery the healing was not complete. At this point my surgeon suggested we could be dealing with pseudo arthrosis. Basically in layman’s terms that means failed Fusion. I chose at that point to give it a little bit more time. At that point I was also tired of keeping within the 10 to 15 pound limitation that I had. I had gained so much weight I was so unhealthy feeling and looking. I was depressed because I felt disgusting.

 

The problem I was seeing though was that I didn’t eat garbage food. We ate what I thought was a very balanced diet. Every meal has vegetables in it wait for many times was breakfast I would eat oatmeal and add her to the oatmeal. With dinner we would often have rice instead of mashed potatoes or any potato product.

Finally in August I decided to join a gym. At the beginning it was hard to stay on a routine even though a very good friend of mine would meet me there as a wonderful support system for each other. It wasn’t until September that I started going every week at minimum two times. Most weeks I would make it there 3 times a week before I went to college. Yes through all this I was still going to college but will get Into that in another post.

 

I wasn’t really seeing a whole lot of difference from going to the gym but I wasn’t quite as easily discouraged as I had been times before when I tried to lose weight because I told myself that I didn’t gain it overnight so I definitely wouldn’t lose it overnight. in October, on the 21st to be exact, I cut out the foods that were holding me back and I didn’t ease myself into it. I didn’t say okay I’m going to start this diet next week after I eat all of the crap food that’s in my kitchen so that I don’t waste it. My husband is following the same diet that I am. We took the food that we could no longer eat and donated it because why waste it? And even more importantly why punish my body by waiting another week to become healthier me?

 

I am very happy to say that despite my current recuperation from posterior cervical spinal fusion 2 weeks ago that I am still able to do some exercise. For instance today I did 55 sumo squats and 55 basic squat with side leg lift and I finished it off with 25 double leg lifts. Since I can’t do weight lifting and work on the top half my bottom has certainly should not have to suffer and little things like that can go a long way when done everyday.

 

Up until my surgery this past timeI was taking my body measurements every Saturday or something if I forgot to do it on Saturday and I was weighing myself generally about once a week. Because I am on pain medication and meds for muscle spasms I chose to step away from the scale and not measure myself for a little while and just focus on being healthy.

 

I increased my protein by 10 grams per day and reduce my fat by 5 grams for day to promote the healing of the bones in my spine and the muscles that need to be moved in order to get to those bones. Even my worst days now are better than my best days were with my last surgery because my body is stronger.

 

The pictures that you take when your on a diet are so important. And let me make it clear that this diet that I am on is not something that I am going to do until I reach my goal. This is going to be a permanent lifestyle change because if I go back to eating and the bad habits that I had before I will likely gain the same way back.

 

My daughters tell me they’re proud of me. My husband of almost 15 years looks at me like we’re newlyweds now again. I feel energy like I’ve not had ever. My depression issues are almost non-existent. The inflammation from my injuries the head cause me so much pain and the information from the fibromyalgia that made it difficult and sometimes impossible to perform simple tasks is so reduced that sometimes I forget it’s there.

 

Today while looking through some pictures I found a photo of myself from June of 2015 when we had family come visit. I looked at that picture and saw that the top that I had on what’s the same top that I wore for my January 11th 2016 weight loss picture. PhotoGrid_1457534005670

Who says you have to have “breakfast food” for the first meal of the day??

Who says you have to have “breakfast food” for your first meal? If you absolutely must, I highly recommend this. If I could find financial backing I would open a restaurant in a heartbeat for all of us sexy keto-ers.

 

8 oz ground sirloin 90/10 (seasoned with salt and pepper only and split into 2 patties)

1 oz Hivarti Dill cheese

2 large eggs

2 cups baby spinach

 

Macros:

Protein – 66.7g

Fat – 35g

Carbs – 4

Net Carbs – 3.7

 

Talk about food porn! Oh My Good God!!!

#breakfastisamealnotafoodgroup #Intermittentfastingisawesome

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A new day

20160229_205535-1Today is the second day since my husband went back to work. He has been amazing. He takes such good care of me. A week and a day ago I had posterior spinal fusion with decompression. I have staples in my neck. I will post a picture.

Not gonna lie, the pain sucks. I think the thing that sucks the most is the muscle spasms. Since they had to go in through the back of my neck they had to move all the supporting muscles to get to my spine so I’m looking at at least another week or two of some pretty severe muscle spasms before they start to fix themselves.

 

All that being said, I am still finding ways to do tiny little workouts. Even if I just do 20 or 30 squats when I have the extra energy. I am eating a little bit more protein than I normally do to promote healing and taking lots and lots and lots of vitamins. Since this is the second time that I’ve had a cervical fusion I am actually pleasantly surprised at the difference in this one.

 

The first surgery that I had was in 2014 and I did not have very much range of motion in my arms or shoulders prior to the surgery. I was also 40 pounds heavier and was not eating as healthy as I should have been. I really thought it was my friend but then I found out it was one of those friends that is great in front of you but when you turn around and see what it does behind your back, or more like to your butt, You realize that it’s not your friend.

 

I am delighted that today is March 1st sun is shining I hear birds outside my window I’m so excited to start walking outside. Right now I need somebody to walk with me because I’ve been getting dizzy spells and don’t want to be walking by myself and pass out. But that will come. I will beat this. I will get back to work and be the best I can be.

 

So yesterday I spent the majority of the day crying. Like everything made me cry and nothing made me cry and then thinking about crying made me cry. So I of course googled it because why not? Apparently there is a such thing as post operative depression and since I am already prone to mild seasonal depression it’s not entirely out of the question.

 

I do not generally take medications for things so what I am to them too is write down things that I am thankful for like the wonderful friends that contact me daily to see how I’m doing and my beautiful children who hug me and tell me how proud they are of me.

I know that as long as I keep my diet in check by eating healthy and take vitamins that I need to sustain myself and make sure that I stay well hydrated and rested as well as doing a little bit of exercise here and there that I will come out a stronger and better person. We all have darkness in our lives. It is how we look for the light that makes all the difference.

So yesterday my dad called me to see how soon and he told me no break dancing. I love him he’s got the best sense of humor he always cheers me up. So in response to that I said that I’m pretty sure it doesn’t require any neck muscles to twerk. Let me start by saying I do not partake in Twerking. But the conversation that followed which included me explaining in detail what twerking was to my dad was hilarious.

 

So conversations like that, the beautiful plant that I received, along with a lovely balloon from fantastic friends of mine and the flowers that my children and my husband gave to me are all nice reminder that there is beauty in the world and no matter how sad I may feel about having to rely on other people in the current time, things will get better.

Right now the hardest thing that I’m dealing with does my lack of independence. I pride myself in helping others. In fact if you ask my children what I do for a job, or at least what I did for a job when I was working, they would say my mom helps people so that they can do things that they couldn’t do for themselves. I have immense amount of pride in the type of work that I do and there is never a doubt in my mind that this is what I meant to do. Yet when I have to be the one asking for and accepting helpIt just seems to be an impossibility for me.

 

I am hoping that these blogs that I’m writing are interesting the people and not just some ramblings of whining crap. No matter how difficult things are there’s always a way you just have to be able to open your eyes to find those ways.

And now I need to take a little short nap before my kiddos come home since I just took a muscle relaxer to stop muscle spasms. I hope to see that I have some followers soon but even if I don’t it’s just nice to get my words out there. Be well